I feel...

sad, stressed, over-whelmed, frustrated, confused...depressed?

Ahh, I feel like SO MUCH is coming at me, it's getting me to a point where I just want to run away from everything. All I can do right now is PRAY. and PRAY hard.

School starts next week on the 19th. I'm still waiting on my book loan. I really hope that comes in soon! I need to go school supply shopping, forreal! I got dropped out of the math class I signed up for because I didn't receive a 'C' from my previous math class. I now need to take summer school to get caught up with my pre-reqs! Errr... School, why must you be so HARD?! I would really like to go to this private nursing school, but like I mentioned in a previous post, it's 100K... I obviously don't have that kind of money lying around, and I'm not too sure if I'm able to get the loan on my own =/ Ahh, Lord, HELP ME! Please!

Say whaaat? 3 years with my boyfriend on the 20th? YES! I am super stoked. We have no plans for that day, but I hope it's something spontaneous. I really just would like to spend the day with him <3

I plan to spend like 3-4 days in Vegas and just spend time with my friend, Nikki who lives out there. All I need to worry about is the round trip airfare and food, shopping, etc money. I just gotta figure out WHEN I want to go. I went onto Priceline and it'll cost around 140$ for round trip... WAAY too expensive. Hmm, let's hope I'm able to go. I'm in need of a desperate vacation. Too much on my minddd!

I hate writing blogs, I feel so un-creative... bleh! Good-bye =)

it's been awhile...

hm, where do I start? I don't even remember where I left off..

well, FYI: I failed my Anatomy & Physiology class. I WILL need to re-take that in order to get into the Cypress Nursing Program.

I'm now enrolled in school full-time. For the Spring Semester, I am taking 13 units, 3 of those classes are online o_o

I'm thinking of going to this private registered nursing school, but it'll cost me 100K, and I don't even know if I can even get a loan that big by myself!

It's going to be 3 years with my boyfriend, Conrad next month. I'm so excited! One step closer...

Too much drama's been happening since the last time I wrote. Soo unnecessary. -_- over it!

I spent my 20th birthday at Disneyland, but only for 3 hours. Ahh, such a long story..I don't feel like typing it. But, I'm never going there again. I now remember why I don't like it! Too crowded, too many spoiled little bratty kids...and the lines are ridiculous!

An old friend of mine found me via Facebook, and it's crazy! We haven't spoken in almost 5 years. We were close 5 years back..and I just feeel like we have that best friend connection. Anyway! it's good to have found old friends. :)

I guess I'll addd more later..g'night world!

school!!

oh, my, goodness. my anatomy class is soo frikkin'...confusing! I guess I understand everything, but when it comes to actually memorizing them and such, sadly..i suck. there's a bunch of CAT muscles I need to memorize, along with the muscles of the human body, then I gotta memorize all the cranial nerves. waaaahhh... i need a free tutor, please. the professor lectures so quickly, i forget what he says when the lecture is over. :( someone HELP?! anyone? lol.


hm, my days have been a-ok. i've pulled two all-nighters just to study for my test, just to get a C on them. :( i really do suck at this subject. all my weekends are study-filled until July 10. i even have to study july 4th weekend! well, maybe i'll give myself a break. ;]

I miss my boyfriend. I haven't seen him since Sunday, and we usually see each other everyday. i know i'm irritating/annoying him right now, but oh well. what can i say? time of the month. =X but, i really do miss you babe...if you're reading this! (kisses!)

i think i need friends..i'm lonely. lol!

cram session at 3:30AM

i've really got to stop procrastinating and doing last-minute studying. i will be pulling an all-nighter...errr.. it sucks. i just forget everything when the exam comes anyway! so, my first exam grade is an F. =( my second exam grade is a C. i improved 2 full letter grades. i think i'm doing OK.

my memorization is there, but he's cramming it in our brains at such a fast pace, it just flies out the window. i should've taken this class in the fall, but it's always full before i even register on my priority date.

oh, speaking of registering..i need to call Cypress and see what's up with my financial aide! they're tryna screw me over with that. ugh!

i'm finally getting my own bed. well, my mom's giving me her bed & she's getting a new one. queeen size, baby. I get to roll all over the place now. yippee!

me & conti are planning to go to the Natural Museum of History in San Diego for Body Worlds. It's a bit of a drive, but it's worth 25 extra credit points for my Anatomy class. About 27 bucks a person. Eek.

reminds me...I need to get an oil change.
I cannot wait to get my 2 10's buuuuumpin'!
i'm really just distracting myself from studying. i hate studying. i hate studying. i hate studying!
conti always tries to make me feel guilty about things. i don't like it!

i made some really good baked ziti (baked penne) with Italian sausage meatballs. i forgot the mushrooms though.
can't you tell i'm just typing random things? they don't even related to one another...
i wanna marry conti!!!
he says i didn't mention him once in my whole entire blog. well, here ya go, honey!
i love you. i love you. i love you! you are my sunshine, my only sunshine, you make me happy, when skies are gray, you'll never know dear, how much i love you, please don't take my sunshine away! (are those even the correct lyrics?)

i wish i had a best friend to hang out with. waaaaaaahh. everyone's too busy for me now. lame.
i need more make-up. actually, i don't need, i WANT more make-up. i need to go shopping.. I haven't gone shopping in like a year?!?!?
ok, i'm done for now..ta-ta!

School

ok, so school has not gone the way i've expected. first off, i don't have the books i need for the class..and i don't have the money to buy them immediately..and I NEED them by today. (june 3rd.) I barely have money for gas. i don't want to ask my parents. just so many things comin' at me at once. it's hard. :( the teacher gave us a packet for the first 5 chapters, & the exam's on Thursday.. then Monday, we have a cell exam..and i don't even have the book to look at the cells and study them. ahhh!!

i'm never going to any canyons ever again..i feel so sick going thru those curves..ugh..it's kinda..worthless for me. i don't even like fast cars!

saturday, I got a haircut..and she frikkin' cuts it soo short! she told me she was keeping the length & just cutting off the damaged hair. then she decides "oh, your ends are dead also *chop chop*" she didn't even ask me!! now i'm back to how I had it in october..(which is waaay short.) :( i'm so...not havin' it.


BYE!

Countdown to school: T-Minus 5 days!

eek! i'm so excited. idk why. maybe it's because i took a WHOLE entire year off. i need to get on top of my education dude! i seriously forgot everything. lol. it sucks.

anyway, we ended up having a bbq. pork ribs with tati's special marinade! it was sooooo delicious..and cooked to perfection! i have lots of pictures. :)

on Saturday, tati made fried rice & eggs and invited all the family over. of course I was invited because i'm practically family! haha. her fried rice is sooooo delicious!

Kuya Alex and Shawnee got into a car accident. they got clipped by a speedin' car, their truck rolled TWICE and landed on all fours. but, they came out with no major injuries. shawnee got a small concussion with a few scratches. pray for them to heal w/ no complications. it's a praise also because God kept his children safe from any dangerous injuries. all glory to God! :D

oh, guess what?! time for pictures!!!!!! i just uploaded a bunch of pictures. i took a lot of videos also. gotta get those up soon. ENJOY!

AHAHHA! I LOVE THIS PICTURE! Beauty & the Beast :x


on the way to Vegas...

on the strip, I think. babe, where'd your eyes go?


treasure island. the only picture i got of the strip. hah, oh well!


me...being conceited.. hehe

in San Pedro, freezing!

toria & I @ her grandparents' house.

I <3>

what our wedding day will look like. :P

ok, last picture...

kisses to my lover!

My trip to Vegas...

was not at all exciting. well, besides seeing Conti's god-mom (for her surgery that got canceled.) his cousin came back down from Virginia (he's based there for the Marines) and it was a good opportunity to go to Vegas and visit everyone. buuuuut, his cousin decides to have this excuse that since he's in the Marines and he doesn't get to do this often, that he would get stupid drunk and act a fool! he treated Conrad with little respect while intoxicated & i did not appreciate it one bit.

we arrived in Vegas on Saturday around 8PM, had dinner, talked to everyone, etc. we decided to walk the strip. we parked somewhere, then we walked in a circle, when the strip was clearly the other way. drunk cousin says "go get the car, i'll be waiting here at Paris." me & conti walk around trying to find the elevator for the parking, but we couldn't, so we walked up this big hill. anyway, we got the car, and drove to the place where his cousin said he would be, but this guy keeps walking around and we had to make literally, 5 U-Turns. (we don't know the area at all!) it was sooo irritating!! oh yeah, we threw out the rest of his beers..and he got super mad at my boyfriend and started throwing everything out the car. it was dumb.

we finally got back to his god mom's house around 2:30AM, I slept. It was a good sleep. lol. sunday morning, their nana made fried rice. we rented some movies, his family made us dinner before we left. GOOD dinner too. GOOD Guamanian food. Haha. we left Vegas around 5:30PM, got back in Cypress at 10:30PM. Conti lost $25 bucks in Wheel of Fortune. anywho, that was the majority of the trip. planning a trip again soon. =)

Monday, I went to South Coast Plaza in Costa Mesa. Their stores are too expensive for me. =( I seriously could only afford probably the food places there, and Wet Seal. Hhaha!

I start school on June 1st! I'm so excited. One more weeek. Wheee! There might be a BBQ for Daniel this weekend. Maybe...hmm..

Happy birthday to everyone in May. :) Bye-bye!